Graduation update

Time for an update. So a while ago I posted about my nervous and scared feelings about graduation. Let me just put those feelings to rest.

Graduating was exciting and liberating!

Final's Week

Here's my typical final's week. Does yours look the same?

Here we GOOOO

All right everyone, this is my last week of school and yes, it is finals week. I have two finals tomorrow (my worst ones), one on Tuesday and one on Wednesday. Then, all I have to do is fight with the school bookstore about why my gown hasn't arrived yet and get ready for graduation. I can't believe it. It's been four years: two spent in community college and two at a university. I am so grateful for the opportunity to expand my knowledge and for the new experiences. I'll be posting a "through my finals week" post by the end of the week and you'll be seeing more of me here since I'm on a tumblr hiatus. 

In any case, thanks to those who stood by me through these crazy four years. Alf alf alhamdulilah. :)

Thoughts on graduating

Graduation is scary. Have you seen that movie (the name escapes me now) about a wrongly convicted murder who is accused of murdering his wife and goes to prison for life even though he's innocent? Well, one of his friends in prison works in the library. He's a really old man who spent ~60 years in prison. Eventually the prison committee decided he had done his time and released him. The poor man was terrified: the whole world had changed. He tried to commit another crime just so that they could send him back to prison. The outside world now had cars and people and technology that he wasn't used to. It's tough.

What's the point of the story? I'm graduating soon inshallah and I am scared of what's to come. I've been in school for 16 years and now I have to do something else with my life. I guess this is why people take forever to graduate: they feel safer in a school environment. And this is why students become teachers: they only know how to survive in a school environment.

Don't get me wrong I'm so excited to graduate. Alf alhamdulilah the time has finally come when I continue to learn what I choose to learn and I don't have to be tested on any nonsense information. I get a party celebrating my survival through college and university and as you all know, party = gifts+money. ^-^ chyeeeaahhh.

Change is scary and new and I really like it but there are moments when I just worry too much. It's time for me to trust Allah swt and accept that He knows what's best for me even if I don't see it.

The worst thing is paying for grad stuff (cap and gown, cords, school memorabilia, alumni packages). As if I wasn't already poor from tuition fees.